Silence of Ignominy

A saying by Lao Tzu:

"At the center of your being you know who you are and know what you want"

Knowing yourself is definitely good. You know yourself inside and out. But the hindrance of being happy, just to have peace of mind, is the society. The irony shown unto us from the very start of our existence on earth is proving yourself to this already established traditions and customs of the so-called society of ours. It's like you owe every soul an explanation but in reality, you don't. Will you still be happy about yourself if people of the society dont like you, silently?

Growing up is part of life. There could be two consequences. One would be you grow up the way other people are used to and second, you grow up in a different way. It is like people tends to drag you to follow the same track other people had made. And if you decided to make another path, and you end up in a state where individuals don't accept you, you are now an outcast.

The hardest thing to accept is when people establish their prejudices. I know, it is not good to hear directly from a person about their real thought about you but thinking that they are already making you an opprobrium is the heaviest burden among all burden to carry. It is a torture. They look at you in odd, peculiar and awkward ways, well of course they are not aware of that. So, nobody can blame me for being this paranoid. Let me ask you, do you think you wouldn't end up in such state wherein all people surrounding you are strictly sticking to the tradition and prejudices that they have? That can' be answered in just a day or two.

Sometimes, I tell and ask myself when will this ignominy end. After that, I am clueless.

I do actions to deal with this. But why is that every time I feel that I am already succeeding; there will always come an instance, maybe a person or an event; depressing me instantly?

Let's just say that the society accepted you because of the things you are capable of. Did everything changed? I wish yes. But NO. They will treat you nicely? Yes. Will they show people they respect you? Yes, they will. But the stares and unconscious actions they made will still remain as if it was stagnant. That is even worse than the first one. Silently, they are humiliating you. A disgraceful soul.

So let's answer the question. Will you still be comfortable about yourself if people in the society don't like you? Answer? No. You wont be any longer comfortable. Because No matter how strong your beliefs about your self ,that in reality you know who you are and know what you want, you can't be in peace when people around you strongly protest and justifies that you are not.